I've been thinking about this lately because next year around this time, I'd like to not be. Change that...I will not be. I refuse to continue to be this way. Therefore, I'm making a list for posterity. So I can go back and say, "Ah yes, I remember now...."
As I spoke of in an earlier post, my friend Zammi is going in for a weight loss surgery. I need her. I need to be around people that are doing it. People who are doing the right things. Exercising. Eating right. Visibly losing weight. I feed off of their energy. Their drive. Their commitment. I fully intend to feed off of her. I'm hungry for being on a roll. I want the momentum. The way people will ask me how much I've lost. Tell me how pretty I am since I've moved down a size. I'm desperate for the attention after being invisible for so long.
Zammi's having surgery on the 7th of November. I think I'm finally ready. And yes, I realize that SHE should be the one getting ready and she is. But since I'm tagging along, I too need to be ready.
Ready to exercise. Check. Ready to eat less. Check. I'm slowly wheeling my carriage back upon the straight and narrow path of health.
Oh yeah, I was making a list, wasn't I?
How DOES fat feel?
• Tight
• Tired
• Full
• Yearning
• Sleepy
• Big
• Crowded
• Warm...sometimes hot
• Cuddly
• Wanting
• Soft
Nothing I'm gonna miss there.
3 comments:
Good luck to your friend with the WLS, and to you as her follow along partner...I had planned to have the WLS, but can't now because of insurance and 3 kids to raise outweighing that whole $$$ issue.
Someone once told me that I wasn't fat, necessarily. "more like, plush," he said. It was meant to be a compliment, but I've never felt more like the Michelin Man in my life.
I'm starting a diet tomorrow. The new BF is a firefighter, and oddly enough, I'm dieting with one of his best friends, another FF that wants to get in shape. I think he'll harass me into sticking with it. I MUST show him up, or I'll never hear the end of it.
Good luck, to you and your friend!
Sassy:
Thanks girl. I know it was hard on Z to get together the $$$ without any insurance help. You'd think they would cover it since it would pay off for them in the long run.
GNG: Yeah, I'm really, really plush! LOL Thanks for the wishes! Good luck to you and the FF, too. Must be awful to work out with a FF (thinking of all those posed guys on calendars I've seen!)
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